|Posted by Brandy Potter on January 7, 2016 at 1:20 PM|
This year has brought so many personal upswings and down swings that it has been so hard for me to focus on my writing. In fact the amount of stress that has come my way good or bad has basically made it nearly impossible for me to focus on any project that involves creativity. It has gotten so bad that I have often wondered how do authors handle stressful times where their creativity is stifled if not in fact entirely blocked. Even sitting here writing this blog is becoming a bit difficult.
I went to our good friend Google to see if I could in fact see if there were interviews form those of my favorites who were still with us for advice. Most of them say the same bloody thing… keep writing.
I too have shouted that particular moniker from the rafters for an entire year. But when everything you write turns to scheit and makes no sense or is nothing that you would even WANT to put your name to, how does that work? Are there little snippets of shining gold in the pile of manure that is generated when I do that? No.. it’s all crap.
So what does one do when one has life coming in and saying “Try meditating it away now fool”…..
I took a break. A sincere break, dropped my stories, dropped characters all of it…
Stop gasping and waggling your fingers at me…
For the sake of their development I had to. That is not to say I didn’t focus on writing, I did. I just focused more on techniques, networking and the business. The stuff NONE of us wants to deal with but that is inevitable… Nora Roberts summed all of our feelings up on this in an interview on Book Browse : “ all the extra stuff that isn’t actual writing – can be difficult simply because most of us who write prefer to sit down and do just that. Traveling can be stressful, inconvenient and tiring. The writing is a joy, even when it is not going particularly well. The simple fact that you are lucky enough to have a job you love can’t be beat. The days when you can’t wait to get to the keyboard are the best. You can sit there and work in your pajamas. It doesn’t get much better than that!” (https://www.bookbrowse.com/author_interviews/full/index.cfm/author_number/296/nora-roberts)
But I took the time to learn about these things; to explore different avenues; attend writing seminars; reading and reviewing books; research publishers I like etc. I did all of this to determine where I want my career to go and what I want from my writing. In this way, I was still cultivating my harvest of stories and characters and not leaving them flying in limbo without a rope… but I eliminated HUGE stress on Monday and so my perspective is changing……
….. and you know I have come to a conclusion…
All I want out of life is to make enough money writing that I don’t have to do anything else to provide for my daughter. I don’t need to be Nora or Stephen or J.R.R. or Jane. I just need to be able to have a career that is sustainable enough to put food on the table, a roof over our heads and clothes on our back. That eliminates the stress of perfection in my writing.. back to writing what I want to read not what I think will sell.
And finally, I need to stop caring about my “day job” cause it’s not my “real job” and get “a job” where I can leave it at the door and wrap my fictional creations around me and obtain the career that I really want.
so what epiphanies did you have this year?